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___::past memories::

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

hmm.where should i start.it has been a long time since i post something here.hahax.

hmm.okkiex.last sat was kinda the first day of work ( as banquet waitress in the regent spore) since my on-the-job-training the week before.well, i thought everything will go smoothly just like the training itself.however, maybe because this week i am kinda assigned to a table of guests alone, i felt very pressursized.i did not know why,but i just felt nervous and all the mix feelings in the stomach when the friends and relatives of the bride and groom came flooding into the room.sooo, when my table was full house, i started serving the drinks...Take note this table that i have been assigned to, consists of 2 families and a couple, a total of 11 people.3 of whom are of my age. when the first course (cold dish) came, i just simply left the plate there and let them serve themselves, because my partner said since i am still not used to taking the food for them, just leave the plate them and let them serve themselves, but when it comes to the second course (shark-fin soup) and the dessert [[yummmmmpie!]], i have to scoop for them bowl by bowl.sooo hiax.

when it came to the second course, whilst scooping for the 8th bowl, i will kinda perspiring like mad.it was sooooo cold in the room, yet beads of sweat just seem to tickle down my face.so this guy (one of the 3 guys of my age) sitting second from my right asked: "are you relaxed?".i did not answer him because i am seriously toooo nervous.hahax.then his dad, sitting on my right requested for 2 cups of red wine and beer each.sooo of course i went out of the room to the bar to get it.when i returned, i reach out my hand to place the cup of beer on the table but i did not realised that the other 3 cups of red wine and beer on the tray that i am holding with my left hand, become unbalanced.and guess what.disaster happened.all 3 cups spilled on the guy's (whom asked me if i was relaxed) back and chair, dirtying my shirt and i was stunned.i stood there and my mind was blanked.my captain whom happened to be nearby immediately came to the "rescue"well,he just brought the guy out to change his shirt.meanwhile i brought the dirtied chair to the bar (which is the room behind the function room).initially i was too shocked to do anything,after a few minutes,i don't why but i started crying.i was very scared.i did not know what to do.i was soo afraid that because of my act, i might tarnish the hotel's reputation.i really did not feel like returning to the room and serve the guests again.

Then my 2 captains came and asked me what happened and so i explained, then came another 3 managers because they heard "one staff's crying.spillage".all of them wanted me to go back n serve them again but i did not want, then my partner wanted to exchange table with me, but i did not want, then my captain wanted to change my table also, but still i did not want. eventually they granted my wish to go off.

well.so i went off, only to find myself wanting to go to the airport again.so upon reaching there, my friend called, wanting his bag back from me, so i took the next bus back.throughout the whole journey to and fro, and whole night, the incident kept playing in my head.i have been thinking of quitting ever since, because i have developed a phobia of carrying drinks on tray.also that was one of the nights i felt very empty inside. i so wanting to talk to somebody, but i did not know whom to turn to.i so wanting to meet somebody at that time, but i did not know whom to turn to....

but life goes on.

on monday i went for my follow-up in nsc (national skin centre), what a relief.my doctor said i have made tremendous improvement, even better than those who took oral medicine too.hahax.so happy~really.so its time to say bye-bye to the remaining pimples and scars on my face.hahax.that was the first day of my class chalet at satra resort (something like that).

yesterday went for the chalet.heehex.lets talk about the night.hahax.the afternoon's activities are kinda normal.hahax!sooo.we BBQ.we chatted.we drink.we manjonged.we played from 21 points to some game we made up ourselves.hahax.the loser drink.kena twice, but the first cup was plain water.hahahx..woah!last night my stomach really have many chemicals inside.from orange juice to bacardi with orange juice, to heineken, to coke.hahax.last night was also the night i learned to play manjong, finalllly! we played till kelvin ong fell asleep.we played till mabel lee retired for the night.hahax.about 2 am we decided to take a break.hahax.wash up and stuffs.that was also the moment i felt fresh and clean and nice-smelling.hahax.then we continued with manjong again.oooo!this time i won 2 rounds.hahax.but we didn't play with the chips or money.just playing for fun.get the hang of it.we were manjong-ing and watching the tv at the same time.hahax.only to retire at 4 am for the "night".hahax.wanted to see sunrise.but we did not know what time, so in the end we still did not sleep at 4.we were for a walk at about 430, hoping to catch the sunrise, but we waited for 1 hr, till about 530,the sun still did not rise, so we decided to go back to the bangalow to rest.us the 3 girls, siti,jolyn and me, fell sleep immediately upon laying on the bed.we were that tired.hahax.but the other 2 guys were still drinking the remaining 4 cans of beer.i have had no idea what time they slept.ahhax.at about 7,mabel lee came in to asked if we wanted mcd breakfast.hahax.sleepy me, i did not remember what i told her.hahax!then i went back to my lalaland again till 9.hahax.

my stomach felt weird though when i wake up,i figured maybe because i am hungry, so siti, soonwei, mengyeow had mcdonald's breakfast at changi airport.awhile later mengyeow left because he had to meet his friends in about 3 hours time.then initially the remaining 3 of us wanted to "see" aeroplane but siti felt tired, so she left for home.hahax.so left me n soonwei.hmm.we stayed in the airport since 11 am till about 2 pm, jus to find a certain viewing mall.hahax.in the end i sat in bus service 36 from the airport and back to the airport again.a 2 hours journey.the driver will like "why arnt u alighting yet?" because i notice he kept looking back.hahax.finally i took 24 back.hahax.

just now, about an hour and half, i hit my right third toe against the tv sideboard.damn! it was soooooo painful.it started to bleed.it started to be numbed.soo because of my brother and mother.because my mom pampered my bro tooo much until i have to keep his clothes and hang them in his cupboard for him.alll because of him, otherwise i would not have a swollen toe now.all because of him.all because of him...

ok.all for now.i want to watch my kdrama now.hahahx!

i feel the e m p t i n e s s in me.
penned 11:21pm.

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10:10 PM

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