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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

URGHHS.
my timetable sucks.
if you see my timetable for Tuesday, it starts at 8am, and ends at 6pm.
10 hours!
but i only have 4 hours of lessons.
STUPIDDD.

went school for APEL (1hour) this morning and came back home straight after that.
my dad was shocked to see me back at 9.45am, when i only left house at 7am. LOL.
surf the net for awhile and went to sleep. hehe.
and back to school again for CDS, Colour and Composition.

the CDS was enjoyable.
felt like i'm back to secondary school. heeex.
and of course the good thing about it is i don't have to study or memorise those theory =X

feeling so tired with the cooling weather.
*yawnnns*

and by the way, i finally got to eat my beancurd which i craved for DAYS already.
hahaa.

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, ALDRIC!
:)

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

Monday, October 30, 2006

specially for shan rong;

known her only a short period of 7 months, yet i am able to see from her the true meaning of the sentence :

a true friend walks in when the world walks out of you.

she knows that i am feeling down these few days and never fail to keep me accompany.
she listens attentively when i grumbles.
she cheers me up with all she can.
though little words she spoke, i was able to feel the concern from her.
she encouraged me to step back a little but not to give up totally.
she told me not to think of the past which kept me unhappy.
i was able to feel the love of a true friend from her at all times.

i enjoy her company,
i enjoy her laughters.

her smiles fill the emptiness in my heart.
and she is certainly a friend i will treasure forever.

thank you, my dearest friend.
love ya :)

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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*shanrong :)

Sunday, October 29, 2006

SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOO BORED.

A levels is around the corner.
think about 5 more days only?
GOOD LUCK to all my friends taking As (:
especially, WT darling, huixian, chiying, fee, zhejun and cunzheng.
JIA YOU o~

catching the movie, Death Note with shan rong later. hehe.
though we are only classmates for just one semester and both in different classes now, but am glad that we are still as close, or maybe closer than before. =D

feeling HUNGRY now~
):

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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*Coincident

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Singapore is indeed SMALL.

yesterday after school, i met shan rong for dinner at hougang mall.
and i saw my SM ex-colleague, Andy at the MacDonalds.
he ALWAYS see me there. hahaa.
the other time when i walked past Mac, he smsed me and told me he saw me. this time its there again.
while we were eating and chatting away, shan rong told me one of the staffs there look like Aunty Ring. the way she looks like and the way she talks! =X LOL.

and...
SOOOO coincidental, this morning when i went to help my dad pay some Housing thingy, i met Aunty Ring! its Hougang Mall again.
haha.
and she was teasing me how come i was alone, with no "PARTNER" besides me.
-.-'''

mom is leaving for Genting soonnnnnn~
will only be back on Tue.
and it means i need to do housework these few days ):

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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i don't know if i should continue to believe in you,

to give up.

~~you gave me disappointment again and again,~~

~~when i chose to believe in you.~~

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

give me warmth and care*

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

you guys may think why am i always saying i am sad when its only a small matter.

when it concerns my parents, the matter is never simple and small.

just now when my dad came home, he walked into my room and said in a serious tone "JINGYING, COME OUT"
i knew it was nothing good.
how scary it was to hear that tone of his.

he took my handphone bill and questioned me what's that Wireless Surf charge about.
from what i saw, Singtel only stated Wireless Charge (50 mins) - $6+

few days ago when he asked me about it, i already said i don't know whats that about.
and last night i remembered once i surf the wireless with Wanting @ Starbucks before, but i can't confirm if it was that.
however, things went worse.
my dad scolded me saying i don't admit what i used.
oh well, i wasn't even sure what's that about. am i supposed to admit something when i don't even know if i did it?

nevermind.
my dad soften down when he saw me crying badly.
but my mom came out to add oil.
and that was when i got irritated.
i answered her back about her misunderstood me for using the laptop only to chat with people whom i don't know.
i repeat: she SCOLDED me for chatting with UNKNOWN people.
can't she just check with me before jumping into THAT stupid conclusion?
and i was angry with my cousin for being such a busybody.
aren't he supposed to be busy with his Os? i been encouraging him to study hard and don't always surf the net, especially his prelims result is SO bad.
and WTH, he went to tell his mom that i always on MSN.
on MSN, doesn't mean i am in front of laptop. OKAYYY!!??

i mentioned i chose to keep silent when my mom misunderstood me.
JUST LIKE WHAT I EXPECTED, when i tried to explain she misunderstood me, she scolded EVEN MORE.
and now she used all kinds of reasons to cover that "misunderstood" part.

haiiis.
what can i do.

i just want PEACE, TRUST and UNDERSTANDING.
my head is killing me now.

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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11:56 PM

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i just want happiness.

but why is my world always raining.

i'm so sick and tired of all that happened.

i'm emotionally exhausted. VERY worn out.

discouraged. empty. sad. lonely. exhausted.
you name it, i feel it.

i hate tears.
everytime i will suffer from serious headaches after crying.
so painful that i just feel like breaking my head apart.

but, how to stop it when i feel weak.

can i end here?

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

happy day yesterday (:
'cause finally the 'Y Gang' gathered! and not forgetting, its my darling, WANTING's 18th birthday!
heheex.

for your info, 'Y Gang' consists of me, wanting, yinyee, huixian and chiying.
'Y Gang' cause most of our names got Y except HX and WT. lol.
lame? hahahaa.
cannot blame, we were only 13 years old then. :p

headed down to town first.
went Swensens to have our late lunch.
and YY wanted to bring us to a cheap KTV, however it was closed.
so we went to KBox @ Paradiz Centre.
sang and sang till 1 hour before time, all of us started our zi lian session. LOL!

snapped and snapped as though there are some big stars inside that SMALL ktv room.
all of us were so busy snapping away, only YY was there singing, with US blocking her TV view every now and then. LOL!!!

after ktv-ing, others were tired so left me and wanting who headed down to Vivocity to walk and chill.
strolled at their Skygarden. really love the atmosphere there (:
i want my boyfriend to bring me there next time. HAHA! :ppp

dinner @ Vivo's ThaiExpress and home sweet home.

shall post the pictures up next time cause my blogger has problem AGAINNNNN.

last but not least,
i would like to wish my darling a very HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY! :)
the day was spent in a simple way, but i hope you enjoyed it.

i love my Y gang! 6 years of friendship already and still going strong. :)
next gathering is planned on 18th Nov, after the As.
SEE YA GIRLS THEN! =DDD
*HUGGGS*

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

___::tuesday::

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Selamat Hari Raya! =)

Happy 18th Birthday to Wanting Roach =D

was in youtube finding the Singapore Town song, then i came across the Acapella Group, the 6-guys team who came to RP and did a performance once when we were having our IMF training one Saturday and also during the IMF appreciation dinner at Vivocity last tuesday. by the way, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLqW9J35q_E is the link. =) i thought it was quite cool huh.

then i went to their blog and had a look. those were the songs they performed/recorded and whatnots, and i heard it LIVE!ha!

alex, andrea, jode, michelle and i went for the casting audition for a teen drama at M Sultan Road last evening. with clubs and pubs everywhere, how can you not resist the temptation of going for a drink.HA!so after dinner, we dropped by at Cheeky monkeys.stayed for a little while, about 45 minutes, then we took our leave. niwde: i didnt drink last night! =)

how i wished it was Christmas ALREADY!!!! ='( with Santa around, i can get what i want or at least.plus with the decos in Orchard Rd, the gathering of old pals, and the rainy season, it makes one feel loved. =) and of cos, by then, edwin will be back!HA!

oo..i just finish watching Click this afternoon. there was one part where i teared.it kind of touch one deep in the heart. however, as good as it sounds, i HATE the ending!how can it be a "then i woke up and realised that all was a dream" ENDING?!arghhh!!its so Cheesy, Corny, Cliché and all.alrights, the C words!HA!

these days when Goong is airing on Channel U and with everybody is getting hook on it, the atmosphere is so korean-ish. so Jewel In the Palace days. i did not feel that enthusiasm in the air when i was once hooked on that drama earlier this year. even when i yada to my friend about the exciting parts and stuffs, the reply i usually got was "-.-" ". so anti-climax huh.i guess now its vice visa =) HA! now that my friends are excited about that drama or any kdramas i have had watched and yada-ed to them, i will reply the same way they did to me. wells~of cos it wouldnt be "-,-" ", because i hate that MUCH!

with week six is coming, that means i have only 10 more weeks to the end of year 2 = 10 weeks left to bond with this new class = 10 weeks to do my PP = 10 weeks to buck up my grades!!!ONO!

i want to do more post-productions! or productions!! or anything!!! i am feeling so empty, so much as that i suddenly burst into tears some days last week. i fear of being lonely. i fear of not being able to see my friends i used to see. i fear of losing the people around me. i fear i might be regret about certain things when my time is ripe. i fear i will be forgotten when i am gone for good. i fear i wouldnt be in love again before i meet the Maker. i fear... i think the bottomline is that i am afraid of Death, although i know thats part and parcel of Life.

was watching Miss Teen USA on channel 5 just now. the girls are young (amongst the top 5: youngest was 16, oldest was 18) and are pretties and hotties mans!we will be such a disgrace if we ever compare ourselves with them. tsktsk. the winner is a eighteen year old if i didnt remember wrongly. imagine if Singapore had a Miss Teen Singapore pageant, then we have the group of participants wearing the sash titled Ang Mo Kio, Serangoon, Punggol, etc. ~~how weird can it sound mans!HA!~~ on stage ... o my God. i am so not going to think more about it.HA!

alrights.i know this entry is random, really messy.i apologise.

hitting the bed!Ciao, people.

Specially for Alicia`JIngying, my sister.

At times when the world seems Unfair to you, dont be Discouraged.

Storms come and go, and remember you are not Alone.

and as you know, i am not very good at words, so hmm..

and hopefully i will be meeting you soon

because i haven seen you in ages.

Smiles!

i am unsure of everything now. i dont know if i should continue pinning hopes. probably as time goes by, i will be able to get you out of my head and dreams again. its so tiring and painful. many already encouraged me to tell you, but i guess not.because i dont want to destroy this beautiful friendship of ours.
if only you knew...

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why do you always jump into conclusion before getting things right.
why can't you trust me more than others.

the cousin whom i dote a lot since young and kept encouraging to study harder for the coming O levels actually becomes the one who made me get misunderstood and scolded badly by my mom.
what a joke.
isn't there a chinese phrase called "hao ren you hao bao"?
if you ask me now, i can tell you YES, i regretted adding him.
say me bad or whatever. its the fact.

today, or rather yesterday was seriously a bad day for me.
problems came one after another.
first i was troubled by some matters.
next, i got hurt by somebody's words.
followed up last, i got misunderstood.

i felt really emotionally exhausted.
if i can have a choice,
i want to lose my memories and start anew, even if i have to start learning ABC all over again at the age of 18.

now i can't even feel down, with his words i read.
so what emotions can i have.
am i supposed to bring a smile everywhere i go, regardless its from the heart or not?

i always wish somebody can assure me warmth and secure together with a tight hug.
cause i feel empty and afraid.
as tight as posssible, even if i could not breathe from there.

your misunderstandings, i chose to keep silence.
for i know if i were to try to explain, things will become worse.
you will raise your voice at me and worse, fail to listen to my explanation.
those brings me little anger but much disappointment.
i only wish for your understanding and trust.
how hard can it be?

please come near me, only if you are bringing me comfort and warmth.

yours truly,
alicia`JYING

*HATE MYSELF

Monday, October 23, 2006

alrights.
maybe i always think too much.
maybe i am always thinking of unnecessary stuffs.
maybe i am really that silly to torture my moods with stupid things everytime.

but what did i do wrong.
its just MY emotions, MY feelings.
i wish to be happier too.

haiis.
forget it.
i don't know what am i talking about.

~~at that very moment, i was very hurt by your words.~~
~~i stopped my tears in my eyes, but my heart cries painfully.~~

i am just afraid to lose...
very afraid.
am i wrong to feel that way?

yours truly,
alicia`JYING

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*untitled

Sunday, October 22, 2006

questions pondering inside me,

when further distance i see.

till i understand nothing is eternity,

and promises may not be what it means.

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

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10:51 PM

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tired.

went out with shan rong today (:
bought tortoise keychains. hehee.
both of us sat at starbucks and took all kinds of funny pictures of the keychains.
lazy to upload the pictures from my hp though. =x

school starting tomorrow.
no more late nights.
no more slacking.

must work hard!

luckily my timetable for this semester is same as darling and felicia! (except for CDS) =DDD
finally we can go for lessons and breaks together again.
and for CDS, i am in the same class as shanrong's friend, Eslyn!
hahaa.
no longer lonely. :ppp

i did blogged yesterday but was unable to post it up.
and i'm too tired to re-type everything now.
*yawnns*

___::friday::

Saturday, October 21, 2006

imagine how shiok it is not to bring the heavy laptop to school?!HA!

was going biennale with my school, so i thought the laptop will be a hazzle if i brought it along, so i didn't. after all it was photography module and the RAW files cannot be tranferred out to a normal com, it has to be tranferred to a MAC.so ya~

before i left class, i thought the evalution closes at 2395 pm, so i quickly called soonwei to do the evalution for me, for i predicted that i will be home late. then happily went to Balcony at Heeren with Alex, Andrea and Jody for a drink. =) Lychee Martini last night.

as you know, i can't go home with smeling of smoke and all, so alex and i took 36 to airport and then back home. reached home around 0030 am.

i saw the closing time for RJ was 0759 am, so i just took my time to do. halfway through, i decided to lay on my bed and get a little nap. skcarli who knows!i really fell asleep!

so i missed the closing time as i JUST WOKE UP.Argh.have to sent via email to Justyn. i think he will downgrade me for the lesson. =(

Anyways, Happy Deepavali to all!

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do you know how i feel?

zhen de hao xiang ni

*HAPPY

Friday, October 20, 2006

I AM SUCHA HAPPY HAPPY GIRL.
muahahahaha.

cause i got new phone.
=DDD

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*headache

Thursday, October 19, 2006

lying on bed, tossing and turning, trying to get myself to sleep.
YET, couldn't sleep at all.

my head is soooooooooooo pain!!!
too painful to fall asleep ):
it feels as though its going to explode.
sooooo painful till i feel like crying. =s

AHHHHH!!!

hao xiang ni

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___::wednesday::

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

i threw up my dinner just now.i dont know why, but i am feeling sick in the stomach.tsktsk.
had Wendy's lesson today, in the library.how cool can that be mans! it was really nice, didn't have the classroom type of feeling and was very slack.so to sum it all up, i was very super extremely slack today, i guess my preformance wasn't pleasing.shucks.

last night, attended the IMF appreciation dinner at Vivocity with our dearest PM Lee gracing the event. see how important and grand it is? as much as it was supposed to be grand, the dinner was buffet styled, it was held outdoors, and was hosted by Edmund something and Jamie Yeo.

1 &2) since it was like formal-wear, we were expecting indoors coursed dinner at some posh restaurant or something.tsktsk.actually i am quite fine with the idea of having buffet dinner outdoors la especially when the view is so nice, but i think last night was so not the time to have any outdoor activities for the haze was a bit bad.in a nutshell, we had the appreciation dinner with the haze, period.

3) i think the art director for the event last night was sleeping. how can that host, Edmund wear all BLACK!?he so don't match his stage partner Jamie. i would think Jamie's outfit was okay, but his sucked! (okay, this happens when i get involved much in productions)

4) there were belly-dancers and cheerleaders from NP. so the night was quite hot too, with all the shakings and jumpings!HA!

5) the new Singapore Idol was there, Hady. last night was his first public preformance after winning the title not long ago. he sang 3 songs in all.loyal fans of his, crowded the bottom of the stage with handphones and digital cameras in hands, stretching out as far as they could to snap the moment.

6) the attendance last night was like a mini NDP's audience, so imagine the amount of food i ate.HA! when Jamie announced that it was "eating" time, everybody chiong out of the seats to Q for food. so when we waited for the crowd to ease, the main course such as mee hoon, kway tiao etc were gone.i only ate like 3 pieces of the nonya kueh and a tiny tweeny bit of carrot cake, even the lime juice was diluted to the max! =/

7) now i can't think of anymore, for i want to rest for the night.

Ciaos~

*PS. Edwin, you really "activated" the tagboard ar?HA!good. =)

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*EXHAUSTED

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

TOTALLY WORN OUT.

worked at NSPS today.
we arranged our stocks so far apart that we need to walk here and there -.-'''
and UNFORTUNATELY, when i was on the RIGHT side, the customer will be a female which means i gotta walk all the way to the LEFT side to get the uniforms.
and vice versa.
and stupid JUN SONG. he is sucha bully.
he kept SHUN BIAN here and SHUN BIAN there, when its not SHUN LU for me at all.

so exhausted.
more like exercising than working -.-'''

stock take was even more torturing, cause the stocks were in a mess.
and of course, we kept complaining. hahaas.

the future 2007 p1 kids there are sooooooooooo active you know!
the canteen machiam their playground.
playing and playing. screaming and screaming.
and their mothers SCOLDING and SHOUTING for their children to try the clothes.
faint sia.

my back is aching now ):

and MY DARLING IS BACK! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
welcome home! *pokes* :ppp

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*loss of appetite

Monday, October 16, 2006

feeling weird today.

LOSS OF APPETITE.
don't know to say good or bad. lol.
good cause can jian fei lehh. =X
bad cause its adnormal? lol.

i ate less than 5 spoons of my dinner.
and my gastric is feeling weird now.
haiiiiis.

zuo ren zhen nan.
so many problems. =X

anyway, watch WEI XIAO, PASTA!
haha.
its soooooooooo nice =D
i can't help smiling when watching that drama. hehehee.

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TIRING AND HOT DAY.

the haze is bad today!
when i look out of the window, i feel that my specs is dirty. hahaa.
cause the surrounding is SO BLUR -.-'''

worked at Punggol Primary today.
saw cute little boys and girls. heheex.
some are really skinny that even the smallest size can't fit them.

the only reason i love working at Student Mart is because of the people (:
and out of no reason, i got 1 "godmother" and 1 "godfather" from there. HAHA.
but both of them are not related. =X

last time the boss said i am aunty xizhen's goddaughter, but that was quite long ago.
and today aunty ring said i am the goddaughter of the boss.
*PENGG!!!

anyway, those are not true.
BUT BUT BUT, i don't mind being the boss's goddaughter if my pay can be HIGHERRR!
HAHAHA.
JUST JOKING! :ppp

alright, enough of nonsense.
back to my drama (The Rose). =D

DARLING, I MISS YOU SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!
*MUACKKS* :p

*The Rose

Sunday, October 15, 2006

was watching The Rose (Qiang Wei Zhi Lian) and find this song nice.
the lyrics is so touching :)

Ah Sang - The Rose

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
And endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose

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*bored

Saturday, October 14, 2006

urghhs.
sniffing and sneezing whole day.
i even hold tissues when i sleep. -.-'''

the haze is bad enough.
PSI kept increasing and hit the highest, 116 at 1opm.
but lucky enough, it starts to drop after that.

i have 5 dramas which i watched halfway.
Korean drama: Soulmate, Green Rose, Princess Lulu
Taiwan drama: The Rose and Smiling Pasta
i like the Shin Dong-wook from Soulmate. =DDD
heheheex. however, those korean dramas don't really interest me.
and thats the reason why i stopped halfway. =X

i am still waiting for Smiling Pasta~~~
and anybody wanna watch You, Me and Dupree? HEHE.

BORED.

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ahhh.
SICK SICK SICK.
):

feeling so hot,
but sneezing non-stop. -.-'''

terrible.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to kelvin tan~

just received a sms from aldric saying that yesterday was the last day, as in Graduation Day for YJ.but the As not over yet.

suddenly, this brings me back to year 2004.at this time 2 years back, everybody was chiong-ing for Os too.okies, at this point "we will have a flashback ...."

whatever. i am so not in the right mind to blog.
BYE.**cough cough, sneeze sneeze".

oya.HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN! ~~(the RETARtED boy-friend! =P)~~

*to YOU

Friday, October 13, 2006

specially for someone.

after reading what you blogged, i got a kind of indescribable feeling.
the care, concern and love you gave are so touching.
the things you did quietly, nobody can compare.
i understand how you feel. missing for someone can be that hurting and uncontrollable.
LOVE, that 4 letters can be so hard to be spelled.

just wanna tell you,
i agree everybody has their own problems.
but if you treat somebody as your good friend, you shouldn't hide your troubles from him/her.
true friends hide nothing from each other, yea?
when i was down or troubled, you never fail to console and encourage me.
you never fail to stand by my side, lending me your ears.
therefore, treat me as a true friend. share with me your troubles.
i might not be able to give you great comfort or advices, but i will be willing to lend you my ears.

listen up,
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
we promised to stay by each other, isn't it? :)

*HUGGS*

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11:20 PM

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last night, the soar thoat and flu got worsen, that was why i slept super early and i think i had a slight temperature in the middle of the night.

this morning when i woke up at 6:30, my body was aching and the soar thoat, i had no voice and flu was really worse; very feverish.however, i still went to school. took the train instead, because i cant tahan the air-con blowing at me and the one bloody hour ride.

on the way to school, i was thinking what if i collapse halfway, because i was feeling very weak.owells~thank God, i was outside of the "freezer" classroom 3/4 of the time taking pictures under the sun (because today's module is Photography and digital imaging).

By half-day, i was much better than in the morning.

Also, because of the video played in Wendy's lesson, i have decided to turn aqua-vegetarian, as in i will eat things from the water, but no chicken meat, pork etc. by the way, i think i have succeed for today is the third day.

there is an underage party at DXO today and chuanxiang brother is going.i admit i have the thought of going, but nah.i dont want to faint there.=x Enjoy!

TAKE CARE PEOPLE. THE WEATHER IS A B-ITCH. =)

*wei xiao, pasta

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

WEI XIAO, PASTA (:

i love this drama more and more.
hahaas.
just burn out 12 episodes.
anybody wanna watch? i am very willing to lend out. haha =X

I AM STILL WAITING FOR EPISODE 14!!!
-.-'''

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___::tuesday::

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

today, i overslept the school bus-stop and went all the way to Woodlands Interchange. Even when the bus approached the interchange, i was still sleeping like a pig in the back row, until somebody tapped on my shoulder. i thought who was it, but anyways, thanks dude. =) so i ran out of the bus, with the vapour on my glasses, jacket worn back-front etc .what a sight!

owells. today was productions again. this time we focused on audio.i think its very foolish to not have enough audio equipments if the topic was about sounds! Because my team was the last team in my class, we do not have a full set of equipments. we had the shot-gun mic without the boom-stick, we did not have any le-pal wireless mic, we did not have a mac either.sounds sickening eh?so for the pre-trigger, we had to use the camera's mic, which was abit sucky because its stereo, its not directional, so the sound picked up was hmm.not very good.owells.luckily Shannon's team need not use the le-pal, so they lent us and for the whole video we did today, we used the le-pal.hiax. and as for the mac, we used another class's because they had only 3 teams today.

my eyes are so dry.tonight is soo windy. i just opened all the windows in my room and is sitting right in front of the window.shoik sia.probably i will not need to switch on the air-con later.HA!apart from the BBQ Smoke-like haze, i like the smell of tonight. it smells so 4+ am. PLUS the wind....ahhh....so nice..HA!i guess i will be going to bed sooner than usual and i am so praying hard that the rain comes so that the haze will not be that thick.(Higher-aboves, please hear that)

just now, i received a call from shan shan, hmm,not from PCSS. she transferred to NP, after half a semester in year 1.kind of haven't seen her in like 1+ year.tstktsk.she is doing some business course in NP and currently , she is doing a business project, so she need some feedback stuffs.guess i will have to meet her on saturday then.HA!

and with regards to the previous post, i have changed my mind. i have decided to put that on a hold because i realised that this friday is Friday the Thirdteen.HA!also..hmm..i am having second thoughts.........

Nighty elpeop =) tomorrow's another day. its Character Design by Drrrrrrama Mamaaa!HA!oya.today's test's module is Character Design.kind of ..hmm.. i have not much confident in it.if i can get a C for that, it will be good enough. =(

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___::monday again::

Monday, October 09, 2006

its been a week. tell me you miss me!HA!

owells.alrights.first things first, i guess i have decided this friday to be the day.hmm.should i or should i not?maybe i really should, who knows, might be a good ending after all.HA!

i guess these days i am too tired or something, because i kept dreaming.on Saturday night, i dreamt of alex and gang. dreamt that i became a gay and even had a girlfriend!HA!hmm.the next night, which was this morning, i have a had really sweet dream.ha!TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.=) if only my mom didn't come into the room to "wake" me up for school.mind you, it was already 7:05am, so i took the train instead. dreamt of IMF-the bus host thingy, BBQ and kelvin.hAhahaha!DARN funny. =P

so, back to reality.tomorrow's module is production practicum, doing sounds.damnit.i guess we wouldn't have enough time to finish again.

i reckon i will be back next monday or something, so miss me till then! >.<

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AHHHH!!!
I AM SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!

initially i wanted to delete away 1 video from my camera, but i accidentally deleted ALL the photos i took just now.
i feel like banging my head into the wall. -.-'''

so now i can only blog WITHOUT photos.

went "dating" with cousin today =D

1st stop: DeCharacter
collected our makeover photos (:
the photos were bright.
overall, its that bad. lol. at least they are in better quality than i thought. HAHA! =X

2nd stop: Partyworld @ Orchard
the room was SOOOO super cold that both of us were shivering.
but cousin was worse than me, cause she forgot to bring her jacket.
yea, can you imagine? i was really SHIVERING when i was already wearing a jacket. -.-'''
we couldn't stand it, so we called the staff through their computer system. the funny thing was my cousin clicked on the TECHNICAL HELP. LOL!

their service was good. within 1 min, 1 of the staff knocked on our door and we saw him with microphones on his hand. HAHA. i bet he thought our mikes got problem cause my cousin clicked on TECHNICAL HELP. both of us kept laughing about that. haha.
anyway, when he came in, we said "the air con is VERY cold", and he said "i get you some jackets?" HOW POLITE and FRIENDLY. =D he brought in 2 blazers after that. heheeex.

however, with the blazers on, we still feel cold.
so we left at 4+pm, when we actually got 51 more minutes to sing.

3rd stop: Heeren
walked around Heeren after that, but there was nothing much to see.
so left after strolling 1 round there. =X

4th stop: Far East Plaza
walked down to far east from Heeren.
again, there was nothing much to see.
seems like we are sick of TOWN already.
we walked the whole plaza in 45 minutes only can. lol.

5th stop: CK Tangs
we walked the 1st storey of Tangs and i saw CAROLINE!
heheex.
but because she was chatting with her friend, i only said hi to her (:
the world is small. =X

6th stop: PS
cousin brought me to the food court and intro me the Indonesia Chicken Rice.
we ate the Grilled Chicken 1. OMG. i love it =D
ITS SO YUMMY! i smsed MABEL and WANTING and told them next time i bring them to eat. HAHAHA! =X
cousin always intro me DELICIOUS FOOD. hahahaa.
shopped at that Dasio $2 shop after dinner.

and THE WORLD IS REALLY SMALL. =X
we went to Sasa, and i saw the handsome Sasa guy who also worked at the Roadshow.
hahaa. i recognised him cause he is very handsome =D
and also because he is the ONE & ONLY MALE staff i ever saw in Sasa until now. LOL!
however, he didn't see me, so i don't know if he recognises me.
if he does, i will say hi to him already. =X

oh ya. cousin went to find her boyfriend who was working.
and when he saw the makeover photos, he asked me "this is you arh?"
and he said "how come you look fatter in the photo"
URGHHHHHH. SO SAD.
I WANT TO EXERCISE LIAO LAH. LOL!!!

7th stop: Vivocity
initially wanted to take the train to Harbourfront and back home, but ended up alighting at Harbourfront. LOL.
but was disappointed to see most of the shops not open yet.
BUT, both cousin and i LOVE the scenery outside!
the sea... the merlion @ sentosa... the cable cars... the sentosa building.
ITS SO NICE.
it feels as though we were on the cruise. hahaa.
i am beginning to like Vivocity! =DDD i can't wait for all the shops to open. heheheee.

Vivocity was the LAST stop.
home sweet home after that ;)

anyway, ALEX, if you are reading this, i just remember i forgot to reply your sms in the afternoon. SORRY! =X

that marks the end of my post for today. GOOD NIGHT, everybody!
i'm sooo tired. work tomorrow. *YAWNS*

SASA*

Sunday, October 08, 2006

alright, i'm here to blog about my work at Sasa roadshow. =D

worked 2 days at the Sasa Fragrance Roadshow at Caltex House (Raffles).
6 of us pink and white were the promoters to draw the crowd to the roadshow.
we carried a box with some ping-pong balls inside. each ping-pong ball has a number, and that number refers to the question which they need to answer.
6 questions in total, and all the questions were VERY easy.
2 questions of which i don't know at first were Where was Sasa founded and Is Philip Wain part of Sasa. Sasa was founded in HONG KONG and basically the answers are YES for those yes or no questions. i guess most people guessed that. HAHA. got 1 uncle kept disturbing me when i was serving other people. -.-''' he kept saying everything is yes lah. alamakss sia. KPO uncle.

because the motive for us is to draw the crowd to the roadshow, so when they answer wrongly, we will say "do you want to try again?", etc.
that is like so obvious. there were only 2 choices. if not this, surely is that right?
haha. lame you may say, but well, Sasa is GENEROUS! =D
after answering the question correctly, we will give them 2 vouchers and they can collect a free perfume vial at the roadshow.
hahaa. don't even need to buy anything. generous? :p

supposedly they say we, as the promoters, are to approach the people to play this little game to get the vouchers.
but ended up, we were surrounded by the people. HAHA.
is like you stand there, people come to you instead. EASY JOB! =D

although the actual working hours were 11am to 2pm, i was so shagged out after work.
maybe because of all the talking. we repeated the questions so many times that all 6 of them are in our heads now.
went home straight away to rest, and i "fainted" once i reached home. LOL.
oh yaa, there is 1 customer who said he likes my smile. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
he made my day manns. KEKE! :ppp

this job was another new experience for me.
and i love all my colleagues (:

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NEW TEMPLATE. =D

song changed to Zhang Dong Liang's bei ji xing de yan lei. (:
love this song to bits.
but always got a kind of indescribable feeling when listening to it.

*to songfeng.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

to somebody ( you know who you are )

i appreciated your care and concern.
but i feel that its just too much when we don't really know each other.
sorry, and thank you.
we are still friends, yea? :)

went to collect Isetan's pay today (:
last minute MABEL smsed me and asked if we should have a 'family' dinner today.
however, because its so last minute, we doubt the rest can make it.

so she came down to meet me and both of us went to catch the movie Rob-B-Hood.
its so funny. some parts are quite touching too. =x
I LOVE THE BABY so muchhhh.
he's soooooooooooooooooo cute!
heheex!

walked around after movie and had sushi for dinner :)
walked over to PS after that, shopped at that Daiso $2 shop and headed home.

my room is in sucha mess.
i wanted to tidy it before holidays, but now holidays are ending in 3 weeks time, YET i did nothing to it.
OH MY~
I'M SO LAZYYY. =X

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*forgetful

Friday, October 06, 2006

urghhhs.
i am so damn forgetful.
just now i typed out a post about my promoter job @ Sasa roadshow, but i was unable to post it up cause my blogger had problem.
i copied the whole post, yet i just remembered that i forgot to paste it in notepad.

so now, everything is gone.
*hits forehead*

shall blog about it again if i got the mood to type everything out again.
seeya.

ohh btw,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to edmund pang and zhi ying! (:

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everybody is busy with their own stuffs.
nobody bothers.
nobody initiates.

sometimes i can't help but feeling disappointed.
and, i feel like giving up.
however, times and times when i said to give up, i ended up missing and thinking of the happy moments we had.

~~i just got a bad feeling that we are breaking up sooner or later.~~

i wonder how well are we bonded.

all these means so much to me,
cause i care,
i treasure,
and most importantly, i love.

looking out of my window, i felt lonely.

my heart feels that empty, as though i am alone in my own world.

i miss the laughters we had, the companions of one another.
as time goes by, i am afraid there will only be memories left within us.

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*colourful

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

hmm...
my laptop is indeed very colourful.
each time the screen blank out, the color will be different.

this time i took a photo when that occurred.
such a nice blue, i like =D
but i don't like it when it appeared on my screen like that.
hmphhfs.

irritating laptop, isn't it?

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OH DEARRR.
i'm soooo addicted to dramas nowadays.
hahaas.

first was My Girl.
followed by Goong aka Princess Hours.
and now, Full House!
LOL.

but i still like Goong best. heeees.

and look at the time now!
its so late already.
i was watching Full House halfway, when Raney PM me in MSN, and ended up talking about the funny parts of Full House.
hahahaas.

i want watch Helen, The Baby Fox ):
anybody has the VCD? =X

anyway, calendar updated.
MABEL, your birthday is UP! LOL.

i am having trouble starting this entry.

alrights.
in short (i will skip all details and whatever),Aldric brother advices me to tell him how i feel, so that i can at least have a closure, because i have been liking him since secondary school days.Well, brother also hopes that its a good ending la. Alexia also advices me to tell him, when i am ready thats is,because at least there is a 50/50 thingy there and i will not hold on any false hopes or whatnots. Personally, i like this idea because of the above reasons, but upon seeing his character i think not. he is the type who is although noisey and abit open, he is still shy and quiet in the inside. From what i see now, i guess he is not ready for any relationship or what.i dont know.as much as i want to tell him, i am afraid i may destroy this wonderful friendship we are having now.hiax.anyways, to Aldric and Alex,thank you for your advices and listening ears. =)

today after class, went over to causeway point for a movie.John Tucker must Die.kinda funny.if you need to be tickled then watch it, my ratings would be 3.5/5.(because i feel that the guy isnt cute enough.>.<>

Mabel is going to bed now and she wishes her readers Goodnight and Sweetdreams =)

*haiis

Sunday, October 01, 2006

maybe i expected too much...

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