Hello World! Mabel is my name. 20 on 5th Nov. CHIJ-Our Lady of Good Counsel. PeiCai Secondary. Republic Polytechnic. Dip in New Media Grad. Singapore
*SAD
Saturday, March 25, 2006
haiis. problems seem to be coming in between me and him. sometimes i really feel so tired that i wish to end everything. i asked myself several times do i really want to continue this? do i really understand him? and can i really satisfy what he wants? and my answers are i don't think i really understand him. i don't think i satisfied what he wants. and i don't think i make a good girlfriend at all. maybe if i have a chance to re-consider, i wouldn't even start this relationship at all. this might sounds that i am taking his love for granted. but i don't mean that at all. i wish i can make him the happiest guy in the world. i wish i can be what he hopes his girlfriend will be. i wish i can accompany him most of the time. i asked myself again and again what actually do i want. i used to think having a boyfriend is such a sweet thing. right now that i have one, i feel the opposite. i feel that i can't take the responsibility. everything just seems to be too heavy for me. i thought everything will be okay. but right now when we talked about that topic again, i feel that i am tired and confused again.
i don't know to leave or to stay. if i choose to leave, i don't know if there will be a second chance. but... i guess i need a break to sort everything out.
*i let you down. the amount you gave me are far too much than what i can take it. i feel that i am not that good to deserve it.
