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*the worst day of my life.

Friday, June 23, 2006

i thought you were the one i could rely on.
i thought you were the one i could find my happiness from.
i thought you were the one who will be there for me every seconds and minutes.

but maybe i was wrong.

i could no longer find my happiness from you.
i could no longer hold on to you.
i could no longer depend on you.

you chose to leave me.
given the reason because you don't want to hurt me.

but never did you know that this hurt was so much painful than anything else.

i teared till my eyes run dry.
i tossed and turned throughout the night.
but no matter how many times i told myself ITS OVER, ITS OVER AND ITS OVERRRRRRRRR!!
i still couldn't let go.
i still love you that much.
i still couldn't blame you at all.

i split out all my feelings.
how much i miss you.
how much i wish for you.
how much i want to be with you.

it all turns out to be disappointment and tears.

before i told you how i feel,
i was so prepared to be a 24 hours good girlfriend to you.
i was so eager to start a new, happy and never-ending story with you.
i was so confident to make all problem extinct between me and you.

why wouldn't you believe that i can do that?
why wouldn't you give yourself and me a chance to do that?

i chose to accept every single thing about you.

but you were suspicious about it.

well, there is nothing i can do.

but if you choose to leave,
make it complete.
don't keep any feelings of me.
tell me you don't love me anymore.

and i will tell you FRIENDS FOREVER, even if i couldn't let go.

broken heart.

Written at
3:10 AM

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