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Thursday, July 06, 2006

i wish my mind can be as clean as this post.
"empty..."

i couldn't do it.
its already the 11th day...
i thought i was fine already.
i thought i'm strong again.
i thought i'm independent.
but yes.... everything is I THOUGHT.

maybe i am just trying to lie to myself that i'm feeling better.

there is nobody to remind me to eat/drink.
there is nobody to send me chocolates.
there is nobody to ask if i feel cold.
there is nobody to hug me when i needed one.

there is nobody......... to dry my tears when i cry.

i'm thinking of you every now and then...
did you think of me too?
are your feelings totally gone?
what are you busy with?
what are you doing now?
are you feeling happy?
do you still care for me?

lots and lots and lots of questions pondering inside me...
i know i will never get the answers.

i realised i couldn't put you on the same level as my friends.

am i dumb?
i can't help myself to be dumb even though i know i am.

i'm afraid i might break apart before i can reach the day when i can be totally alright.

i'm sorry. i tried my best already.

misses*

Written at
11:04 PM

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