that few minutes of interaction, probably less than 5, can be left so unforgettable TO ME.
i was nervous;
not excited, but frightened.
i was so afraid that my heart will soften once i see you again.
i took deep breaths.
and try to calm myself down.
i try to assure myself million of times that i will be alright,
that nothing will go wrong.
unfortunately, it turned out bad.
that very night, i became moody and confused.
images of you intruded my thoughts in everything i do.
i was helpless.
having to spend such a long time trying to get over you,
with only that few minutes which swept away all my effort in trying to forget you.
i didn't even dare to look into your eyes.
i didn't want to see you turn your back before me.
i told you never to mention that word again.
reasons kept inside me which i don't wish to say.
the present you gave, i though of returning.
it brought me memories, which i don't wish to keep.
goodnight messages from you i miss.
goodbyes are the ones i fear to hear.
how can i possibly let go,
when you are still the one whom i miss most.
why are you always the cause of my unhappiness...
when you are actually the one who can bring me a million smiles.
i'm willing to do everything for you.
but you weren't there for me anymore.
