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Thursday, August 24, 2006

went down to ACER today.

i took bus 51 from Hougang Interchange cause it stops near the ACER building.
and for goodness sake, it took 2 bloody hours for me to reach there.
that was okay to me, AT FIRST.

i entered the building through Tower B.
went through corridors and corridors to get to the Service Center.

finally got there, got a number, explained my laptop's problems to the person.
and he told me, "You got to leave your laptop with us for 3 working days. THUR, FRI and MON. But if the problem doesn't happen, we cannot do anything. So we will just return the laptop to you. Cause we can't repair the hardware if we don't really know what's wrong with it."
I understand that, and i actually expected them to return me my laptop on Monday without having that problem repaired.

i was worried about my laptop.
the way i see them handle the laptops, its not 100% careful that type.
however, i have no choice. who ask my laptop to have some stupid problems.

thinking of having to spend my next few nights without my laptop (which i use EVERY single night), i felt kind of down.
thinking about how they might handle my laptop without much care, i was worried.
thinking of that 2 hours bus journey which i took all the way there and that the problem of my laptop might not be repair made me even worse.

once i walked out of the building, i smsed him and told him i am not able to lend him my laptop this weekends.
at first the conversation was okay.
but it turned out that i got irritated with what he said.
if you ask "why you went alone?"
OR
"is the journey tiring?"
OR
"you on your way home now?"
isn't it much better than what you said to me..?
i scolded you back out of anger.
but thinking back, i was guilty.

i didn't want to go alone too.
i wish to have somebody's company.
but, that place is too far.
i don't wish to trouble anybody when it's my own problem.

i apologised to you for being rude.
but you didn't apologise to me for what you said which made me feel hurt.

throughout the journey back, i was upset.
upset with your words.
upset that i might hurt you with what i said.

i regretted.

now you told me you are sad because of your friend.
i wish to console you, but i didn't know what to say.
i was unhappy for the whole day already.
but its even more heartbreaking when i heard that you are sad.

but what can i do.
when i am no longer the one who can stay by your side to share your problems with you.

if it takes a river of my tears to exchange for your smile,
i'm willing to cry a sea of tears for you.

and i don't understand WHY everytime when i'm already unhappy enough, my mom will nag? scold? whatever she can... which make me feel even worse...

haiis.

Written at
12:07 AM

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