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Friday, September 29, 2006

URGHHH.
both my Internet Explorer and Firefox have problems!!!

stupid router!

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*Isetan Private Sales

Thursday, September 28, 2006

work @ Isetan Private Sale wasn't too bad.
quite a number of people who left an impression in me.

dorraine
i don't really know how to spell her name, only know that it's pronounce as DOR-RAINE. lol.
a very friendly and responsible woman i would say. don't see her small in size, her voice can be quite loud. haha!
i was telling another colleague that the way dorraine talks sounds very gan jiong. haha.
she kept joking with me and kept asking me to replenish the stock for Louise & Clerks shirts. i don't mind walking to the store room many many times cause its damn bored standing at the dept there. =X
i like her cause she makes me feel that she trusts me a lot even though its my first time in Men's department. (:

wan ting
oh yaa. she has the same name as my darling Wanting. lol. but her surname is Lu from what i saw in her nametag. heees.
had several shifts with her. she is very quiet, but hardworking.
and so coincidental that she and her good friend are from TP too! x)

the malay girl whom i don't know her name
teamed with her for my first shift as a wrapper.
she helps me a lot cause i wasn't really familiar with the wrapping thingy yet. heees.
a very fast cashier. makes me damn gan jiong so as to do the wrapping fast enough to catch up with her. lol.

topshop guy
he gave me a shock by tapping on my shoulder when i walked past topshop.
when i turned, he looked at me with a gan jiong face and asked me to help fold a shirt nicely for a customer.
DOTS.
however, he is nice enough to thank me when i walked past a 2nd time. haha!

customer 1
this particular customer was very polite and nice when i served him. heeees.
the way he thanked me made me feel so satisfied of myself. LOL!!!
hope he like the shirt he bought. muahahahahas.

customer 2
she approached me and asked "excuse me, do you know where is the CROCODILE SHOES?"
the brand is called CROCS, mdm~
=X

THERE ARE SOME MORE PEOPLE WHOM I WANNA SAY.
but then, i'm lazy to type already. =X
stood the whole day from 8+ AM to 10+ PM, for goodness sake.
certain periods, i was staring at the crowd.
and felt damn giddy seeing people walking HERE and THERE.
i even wondered what if i suddenly fall 1 side because of dizziness. LOL.

anyway, it was a new experience for me in the Men's department. (:
besides being a relief wrapper, i was also assigned to Louise & Clerks, as well as the Imported Ties section.
the imported ties was a good bargain manns. 80% discount you know. omg.
there was this woman who bought FIVE ties for her husband. haha.
TYPICAL singaporean? oh well, at least she is a NICE and POLITE customer. XD
and also its the first time i heard of the brand Louise & Clerks.
although i don't need to wear those long sleeves MEN's shirts, but i find the shirts from that brand NICE. HAHAHA.

and after seeing all the couples who came shopping together, or the wives who came to buy ties for their husbands, suddenly i got the thinking: NEXT TIME I WANT TO HELP MY BF/HUSBAND CHOOSE SHIRTS AND TIES! =X
muahahahahahahahahas!!!
:ppp

by the way, Singapore is really sooooooooooooooooo small cannn.
today i was working when my eye candy called me.
ohh. before that, i shall tell you why do i refer him as EYE CANDY.
lol.
i gotta know him not long ago and he claimed that i am his eye candy. hahaas.
so coincidental that he is also an ex-peicaian and current TP student.
Singapore is indeed small, isn't it? =X
back to main point...
since he calls me EYE CANDY, so i call him that too. HAHA!
the MORE coincidental thing is, he called me earlier on cause he was so excited to tell me that SingLim, my sec4 classmate is his current colleague. OMG.
-.-'''
i don't know what did singlim and him gossip about me, but i just wanna say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGLIM!
HAHAHAA.

alright. its so random.
pardon me for that 'cause my brain is starting to switch to sleep mode already.

when i'm tired, it means i will be moody.

so...
GOOD NIGHT, everybody (:

my feet is sooooo painful.
imagine standing for more than 12 hours with only 40 minutes of rest.
urghs.
poor feet.

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bloody hell.
don't know what's wrong with my laptop, or rather my internet connection.

each time i wanna view a webpage, i need to at least click REFRESH once.
imagine you need to click refresh on EVERY single webpage you view.
sometimes i need to click like 3 to 4 times of refresh before the page show up.
URGHHHS. STUPID.

i'm feeling lazy to work tomorrow. =X
thinking of the journey there early in the morning makes me reluctant to go.
thinking of the journey home late at night after a long day of work makes me even more relectant.

HAHAHA.
but no matter how reluctant am i, i will still go.
:ppp

___::wednesday::

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

today i had the drama mama for character design module. sure enough, she is darn DRAMA! once again, i would like to emphasis STA is like the most "alive" course in Rp cann?!HAHA.owells..when i told this [STA is like the most "alive" course in Rp cann. SIT is not like that right] to kelvin, he was like "no lo, got me can liao, will be alive liao"..tsktsk.LOL.anyways.she acted in Phua Chu Kang before, as his mother-in-law.haha!

anyways, i have decided to change my signature..kind of tired of the old one.so i will be using this for the time being. =) anyways 'm à n g ♥'t à n G o' has always been my tagline since .......... i cant remember when.HA!

tomorrow is Isetan's Private Sales, or rather, 7 and 1/2 more hours.its not open to the public, only for card members.hmm.jingying will be working with mingpei.cant work because i have school.zzz.no moneyyy =X ha!OWELLS. sorry eh,jingying's cousin wanted to borrow mom's Isetan card, but this time i cant lent you, because mom already lent her friend. =

anyways.i checked my school mail this afternoon, saw this mail titled 'audition'. had a look at it and guess what!

"Pepsi is looking for students (Multi racial), 10 males & 10 females between 18 yrs to 23 yrs old, pleasant looking for a photo shoot. Selected students will be paid S$50 for 4 hours of shooting session. Their picture will be used in RP & also other locations if required."

kind of interested.AHAHA!ya rights, go ahead and LAUGH OUT LOUD heh.kind of a good deal huh,considering 50 bucks for 4 hours.that makes it 12.50 per hour.O MY GOD!haha!if i am still working at Mango (7.50/hour), the comparison is miserable.HAHA!hmm..jingying is also interested..but i dont know if non-RP student is able to 'take part'..maybe will smuggle her in.HA! =p

after lesson, went off to the mac lab and chill for a bit with Michelle!HAHA.did i mention i haven't seen her in a LONG run!HAHA!hmm.cam-whoring awhile.AHA!till 7 we left.

got to go down to town tomorrow to return the Princess Diaries II DVD to gramophone.having the urge to borrow another film,but hmm..what should i watch now? =)

Reflection Journal
Question of the day: How has today's topic (Visual and Observational Studies) affected the way you perceive and project your 'self'?

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11:56 PM

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met cousin for lunch @ hougang mall today :)

went her house after that.
and i "lent" my fingers for her to practise on her manicure. hahaas.
its been ages since i last went her house. lol.
and also a veryyyy long time since i last saw her dad and brother :)

had fun with her.
reminds me of my childhood times when i always spent my weekends at her house.
heees.

work @ isetan private sale tomorrow.
8.30am to 10pm. OMG.
i think i will fall dead on bed once i reach home. =X

somebody said this to me:

" *tucks jingying into bed and covers her with a blanket to keep her warm* sleep well and sleep tight later, good night and sweet dreams later. =) "

how sweettt.

hahaas. :)

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SIYING.
:)

i'm feeling so lazy nowadays. *YAWNNS*

*irritating

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

IDIOTIC LAPTOP!

within 2 days, the same old problem occurred THREE times cannn..

irritating manns!

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12:09 AM

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*quizzes

Monday, September 25, 2006

@ Wanting darling's house now.
finally can blog without having the fear that my IE will appear 'The Page Cannot Be Displayed'. lol.

transferring the Goong files THREE by THREE to her using my thumbdrive. -.-'''
i am so tired now, and also afraid that my headache will be back.
only slept like less than 2 hours last night.
i think i fell asleep around 5.45pm, and i woke up when i heard my mom talking to my brother.
fell asleep again, and woke up again when my mom was about to leave house for work.
at that time was 7.20am only. -.-'''

did these some time ago, by never got the chance to post it up cause of my router's problem at home.

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

******

The Real You

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

*****

Are You Nosy?

Nosy Level: 80%
You have a wild and crazy imagination, and this can lead you to being very nosy as you strive to check out whether your theories are true. You get very occupied with your own thoughts and create fantastic stories out of the things that you think are happening in people's lives. It might be a good idea to concentrate more on your own life.

*****

Who is your dream guy?

He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

*****

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.

*****

Are you still thinking about your ex?

Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

*****

What's your personality love style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

*****

What's in the cave?

You only think about having affairs with another but you will never cheat on your loved one in real life.

*****

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 80%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

*****

How well do you get along with others?

You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

*****

What do your friends think of you?

You are popular. Your friends feel at ease when they are around you. You are cheerful and lovely. It's not surprising that you have many good friends. You always feel happy for others, not a glimpse of envy. This is your unique character. Keep up!

lols.
thats all i gonna post.
there are a lot others which i did, but there are just too many to post.
i find it quite fun cause somehow its quite true. :)

can get the URL from me if you are interested to do. :pp

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i told myself to give up totally this time round.
i felt really tired keeping my feelings for him again and again.
i don't wish to rely on him anymore, not even when i'm weak.
i gave more than i could, but all i got back was only heartbreaks.
so i shan't be stupid anymore.

my friends, if i say i miss him again, then give me a slap. =X
i am serious! :)

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!! XD

*JOO JI HOON =D

Sunday, September 24, 2006

i'm feeling so bored..!!

i feel like its been a long time since i last blogged.
but when i went to look back at the last entry i posted, it was just 5 days ago. hahaas.

my holiday is so boring.
for the past few days, i spent my time watching princess hours, chatting online, window shopping, sleep, eat, etc. =X
just nothing interesting.

only that i'm mad about princess hours now. HEHEHEEE!
now my desktop wallpaper also Princess Hours. LOL!
personalised. XD

I LOVE JOO JI HOON!
muahahahahas.

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11:59 PM

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just now i came across few of my primary classmates' blogs through alex's blog.

so glad to see them great and all.i still remembered there were 2 3+ smartie pants in my class, all went to top JCs like National, Raffles and Victoria.then where am i??
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Republic POLYTECHNIC!!tsktsk.its not even Singapore or Ngee Ann.its the youngest poly in this island and not many people are familiar with it.suddenly i feel so sad.i feel like i have let my parents down. =( Maybe i shouldn't have opted to enter Peicai after primary 6.i should have gone to my affiliated secondary school, CHIJ-Saint Joseph's Convent or something.i might have done way better there and also wouldn't lose most of my primary friends' contacts. =( not many entered PCSS though, only 5, if i didn't remember wrongly.besides SJC is affiliated to Catholic JC, so at least if i went there and did slightly better in the Os i might end up n CJC,who knows huh.then mom and sister wouldn't "look down" on me because i am in JC.

but there again, if i didn't enter PCSS, i wouldn't have met and made great friends. hiax. it WAS such a dilemma.now everything is over, i can only think of it and regret much, ~~unless i am able to make it to some local/overseas Unis then it would be a different story.~~

owells.life is like that.if in all situations there is a "i should have ...", "if only ...", then i guess everybody will be able to escape the fate installed for them from the high above.

___::new sems; new class;new start::

Thursday, September 21, 2006

today's the start of year 2 sems 2.

its a new beginning, which also means that year 3 is approaching fast!!!

argh!

speaking of which, i have not done my professional profiling.that spells trouble huh.

i havent met my mentor with regards to that.

and i am so tired.my holidays were gone and "well-spent" at the snap of my fingers. days were either spent at lobsta productions, or janine's kid central's production or the IMF bus-host thingy. just in that pathetic 4 weeks of holidays, i have only spent 2 days, 48 hours literally, at home!only 2 days!following which were 6 days of outings with cliniques.the remaining days were spent as above.tsktsk.no wonder i am so tired.......

in this holidays, i have been seeing alex and jasmine ALOT!and i really mean ALOT! it seems like i will see them at least twrice a week!HAHA!cos we were working together for the 3 projects.hmm.mojo's on and off, occassionally.HA!just yesterday we had lobsta BBQ.also it was jasmine's 20th birthday.as blur as always, she didnt remember!HA!kinda last minute when i remembered it.so kenneth gave us a ride to thomson plaza to get her a cake and "surprise" her.owells.sometimes i wonder..is it really worth it for me to sacrifice certain things for my friends when they do not appreciate?(this sentence is not directing at anybody.i just feel like getting this off my chest thats all.)

new class today.saw familiar faces: zhining, ben-kapidia, alex, esther, beng han, and jay.shannon's wasnt in cos of her polyforum.tsktsk.

that's all for today i guess.all in all, i need a break.soon.

Reflection Journal
Question of the day: Today is your first day in a new class. What were the challenges you had to face and how do you feel about it?

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10:50 PM

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*saranghamnida

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

after my brother reformatted the house PC, i can't blog with that also.
-.-'''
so i think i will not blog as often already, but i will try my best.

[in korean]
doh uhjaechuhruhm dashi keurimsumnida
bohgo shipeun mam joolijdoh ahn-neunji
jakoomahn keudaegah dduh-ohrumnida
hae-ahryuhbohlsoorohk duh noonmool namnida
hoomchyuhnae bwadoh heureuneun noonmoorae
giuhgi ddoh dahreun giuhgeuroh buhnjyuh
ahpeugae nahl oolrimnida
badeunguhtman issuhsuh naegaen hoohwepoonindae
joongae uhpneun nal keudaen ddoh ihjeulka kuhbinah
saranghamnida nahnnahn saranghamnida
kaeudae-aegae baeoon
mahngoh mahneun maldeul joongae
l mal hana ippuhreutchuhruhm na
joongulguhrimnida hohnja pabohchuhruhm
miahnhanida cham, cham miahnhamnida
dwineujeun l mahlkaji miahnhamjimahn

sometimes i feel really tired of trying and trying.

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9:39 PM

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*thanks to all.

Monday, September 18, 2006

thanks to all who are concern about me.
i know you guys are there for me.
but just wanna say, at that point of time i only wish to talk to somebody in the family.
'cause i felt that i lost something from the FAMILY itself.

anyway, i'm fine now.
things between me and mom are getting slightly better.
at the very least, she does ask me questions like where did i go, etc.

THANKS, my dear friends.

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12:53 AM

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*real tired.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i'm feeling real tired.

nothing interests me anymore.
i can't see a reason for me to smile.
or rather, i can't even bring myself to type out a 'HAHA' or 'LOL'.

can i collapse just for once?

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*what had i done wrong.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

i feel really tired.
i used to be thinking, when will all these end.
but i don't feel like thinking much.
i don't care if this is how you going to treat me in future.
i don't care if this will last forever.
i don't care if you still care for me.

my friends tried to comfort me by saying maybe you are under work stress or maybe you are too stressful.
but what i see doesn't tell me so.
if you are really under stress, then what am i to you? do you use me to release stress?
the way you treat brothers, they are just like precious sons.
me? i chose to believe you love me. but the way you show your love, makes me see nothing.

walking around in this house these 2 days, i feel like i am invisible.
last night i was so upset that i feel like talking to somebody.
i thought of daddy. but i don't talk to him much, especially he hadn't reach home at that time.
i feel like going over to gramps or aunt's.
i just feel like telling somebody in the family what's going on and how i feel.
but i don't know how to begin and approach.

first time ever i felt so lonely.
i felt my presence makes no difference.
i felt useless.

i don't know what's wrong. what makes you treat me and brothers differently. what makes you treat me this way.
i just wanted to tell you how i feel. i never think that you are a lousy mother. i only wanted to let you know how far our distances are now.
but it ended up like that.
i am really tired of crying myself to sleep every night.
even tears can roll down when i am lying on bed staring into space.

what had i done wrong.
maybe saying i don't care are just lies.
because i do care. a lot.

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11:05 PM

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*no difference as invisible.

Friday, September 15, 2006

do you know how much i dread seeing you now.

for the whole of today i was alone at home.
i didn't even speak a single word to anybody.
when you came home, silence between us.
its as though i can't see you and you can't see me either.

and worst thing that happened was the very first sentence you spoke already hurt me that much.
can't you just speak to me NICELY.
do you have to use that kind of tone which is no difference as scolding me?

the moment i walked past you, tears rolled down.
i hid myself and cried hard. so hard that i wished to cry my whole heart out.

take away my eyes, cause i don't wish to see.
take away my mouth, cause i don't wish to talk.
take away my ears, so that i won't hear anything.
take away my heart, so that i don't feel anymore.

i don't need anything at all.
i gave up all my hopes. there is nothing that i can do.
at that very moment, i wish somebody could hug me and let me cry as hard as i want.
but do you know, i felt so lonely, even though in this small little house, you were there.

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10:33 PM

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the day i was excited about: 14 September 2006.
wanted to blog about this yesterday, but my mood wasn't good.

so here am i.

i went Buddy Makeover @ DeCharacter with my cousin.

the makeup they did for us was nice.
the shootings were fun, although both of us got a hard time trying to smile widely. lol.
we like the poses the photographer asked us to do. XD

however, i wasn't really satisfied with the outcome.
it kinda looks different from us. haha.

but nevermind, it was a good experience and we enjoyed it.

no actual makeover photo for now cause we will only get it around 2 weeks later.
below are taken using own camera.

then, my cousin brought me to this chocolate shop at Esplanade and we drank this hot chocolate thingy which i forgot the name.
you melt your own chocolate and drink through that metal "spoon".
but because its metal, its HOT when you suck the drink up. :s
however its nice :)
chocolate lovers should go. heees.

a short and brief 1 about my 'excited' day.
i don't know should i still call it excited.
cause i felt more sad than happy, after what happened last night.

haiis.

i broke down.
my head really hurts badly after all the crying, that i went to eat 2 panadols and tried hard to sleep.
i felt terribly down. i don't what to do.
now i understand why people say family is the most important.

i was so badly hurt this time.
it hurts so much more than the last time when i broke up with my ex-bf.
compared to this, that was nothing at all.

haiya.
i don't know what am i talking about.
i can't think now. MOODLESS.

am i just a waste of your time?

*hurt-ed

Thursday, September 14, 2006

things were getting better between us for the past 2 days.
until...
just now.

she started nagging and nagging at me again.
tears rolled down my cheeks like a running tap.
i blurted out every single thing on how i feel

as EXPECTED, she got all her excuses.
maybe to her, they are reasons.
but to me, they are just plain excuses to defend herself.

"i am your mother. everything i do is for your own good." she said.
"mother doesn't mean she is right at all times. you never get things right before you scold me. my friends can talk to their mothers, but i can't!" i interrupted.

silence.

but that didn't last long.
she got all her excuses out again.

supposed to be a happy day for me.
but the day ended with quarrels and tears.

all the crying makes my head hurts like hell.
it feels like it will explode anytime.

my heart was shattered at that moment.
i know what i said might hurt her as well, but i just want to tell her how i feel. i thought that would solve all problems between us. however, it got worse. perhaps both of us are just too stubborn in how we feel personally.

everything means nothing to me now.
because all i want now is her understanding.

i feel so hurted.
my head really hurts. i feel like knocking it apart.

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MY HEAD IS SO PAIN.

NOTHING EASE THE PAIN.

i feel like dying.
:(

___::grades!::

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

so results for AY0607 sems 1 are out!and i am sooo happy!HAHA!

T201 Creative Concepts - B (3.0)

T205 Digital Media Arts - B (3.0)

T209 Film Criticism & Analysis - B (3.0)

T207 History of Arts in New Media - B+ (3.5)

C212 Principles of Digital Media Design - B (3.0)

Therefore, my average GPA for AY0607 sems 1 is 3.1/4 , and the total average GPA for this 1 1/2 years is 3.03. i know its not the best amongst all, but at least to me its good! =)

about today, went out of the house at 8.45 am.took a bus ride to suntec and back, reached home around 10 am, mom was not in so used the laptop for awhile and then left the house again at 11 am.board buses and headed aimlessly for hours cos meeting the rest at 3 later.

hmm.exactly, in a nutshell, i spent my whole day in town, literally.

intially we watched to catch a movie at The Cathay, so i was there waiting for their arrival.whilst waiting, found out that The Cathay has student special. That's paying only 7$ for a movie ticket, its only applicable from mondays to fridays and eve of public holidays!HAHA!cool huh.owells.its only at The Cathay, nowhere else. =)

went over to cine instead, cos mojo said we could booked a room and rent a dvd there, its much cheaper that way.there were 4 of us, so each paid 4.50$, whereas if we had gone to the cinema, we would have paid double.

hmm, the room we had is about the same size as that of kbox's?watched Aquamarine.had a long time choosing the show to watch.HAHA!Aquamarine is nice but abit hmm. =)

tomorrow's another day. =( all 3 of us, jasmine alex and i are down for the IMF thingy.hiax.

Goodnight peeps!

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finally NO insomnia! XD
congrats to me. =X

feeling so bored now.

:: added @ 6.58pm ::

URGH!
I AM SO IRRITATED.

my mom threatened me to iron ALL the clothes yesterday, including those from today's laundry.
so alright, i iron.
but the more i iron, the more fed up i get.

9 out of 10 clothes belong to my brothers.
and while i was down there sweating like hell because of the heat from the iron,
he was down there singing karaoke!
-.-"

and i was ironing UNWILLINGLY, because i was being FORCED to.
and worst of all, my mom said this:
"its not that i want to ask you to do household chores.
but i want you to be trained so that next time you will know how to do"

like wth.
i did all household chores before, alright.

Never force me to do something, especially the tone ISN'T good at all..!
i will be rebellious, i tell you.
=X

i was feeling so angry inside that i accidentally brushed the iron against my finger TWICE.

URGHHHH. =(

now you know how bad my temper can be?
hahahaas. =p
but i only flare at the people who make me angry. =X

and to the cupids above,
please shoot my love arrow to a guy who loves me so much that he is willing to hire a maid or someone who is willing to help out in the housework next time. =DDD
thank you.
its 21st century already,
so its not surprising that girls don't do houseworks right. =ppp

by the way,
REJOICE!
cause i passed all my year 2 sem 1 modules.
NO supplementary paper, which means i can enjoy my holidays to the FULLEST.
HELLO year 2 sem 2! put me in E-commerce please.
=)

no laptop for tomorrow cause my brother is going to borrow it.
he better take good care of it, if not i kill him! =X

off to eat dinner.
HUNGRY.

tomorrow is the day.

muahahahas!

*apple chips

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

i was so tired after a whole day outside that i went to sleep just now.
now i'm so scared that i will suffer from insomnia again tonight. =X
URGH!
its so funny when somebody has fear in sleeping right? -.-"
laugh at me, cause i am that somebody. hahaas.

after i blogged this morning, i went to bathe and left the house.
reached airport at 10.35am. 5 minutes late only.
but MABEL made me waited for 20 minutes!
i saw 2 bus 27. 3 bus 53. 3 bus 22. THEN SHE REACHED. lols.

reached MacDonalds at 10.59am.
she bought BREAKFAST. i bought LUNCH.
i was saying although we are next to each other, but we are like living in different times. 1 Breakfast. 1 Lunch.
weird.

took a bus down to Town after that.
walked from Somerset to Heeren to Taka to Wisma to Far East AIMLESSLY. lols.
felt so super bored, so we settled down at Shaw MOS Burger with our Iced Milk Tea again. =D
then i saw 1 sms received. when i read that, it was 15 minutes later already.
and that person which was Alan said in the sms "hey you at shaw right?"
i felt like i had been spied. the first thing i did was to look around to see where he saw me from. LOL. but too late, he was already at City Hall then. LOL!

left Shaw at 4pm and went hougang mall to walk the Pasa Malam.
and after mabel boarded the bus, i waited for my mom to reach.
and while i was walking around, the whole hougang mall suddenly blacked out.
lols. i can see all the customers leaving the shops and taking the escalators down. hahas.
poor shops.

reached home only at 7.45pm. SO TIRED.
i was out for more than TEN HOURS. O.o

anyway, when we were eating at MAC this morning, i mentioned about the Apple Chips that Mingpei darling was crazy about nowadays.
then mabel wanted to try it.
so we went to the Cold Storage at Changi Airport T2. cannot find.
when we were at Shaw, before we left, we went to the Isetan Supermarket to find too. cannot find also.
when we reached hougang mall, we went to the NTUC to find. cannot find also!
we took the escalators up to the 4th floor and went to the shop that sells tidbits. cannot find also!!!
finally, we went to Hougang Plaza's Shop & Save. STILL CANNOT FIND!

urghhs.

we practically went to all the big supermarkets in Singapore already. LOL. except for Giant i think. hahahas.

and when we were at Isetan Supermarket, we saw this package that says Crispy APPLE CHIPS.
so mabel bought it to try.
hahaas. the first thing i told her after i ate 1 was "eeee. NOT NICE 1" =X

this the one she bought.
notice the word CRISPY?
its not crispy at all!
to me, it feels like eating the dried mango.
lols.

to mabel: you look so tanned in this photo. =x

she was eating while waiting for the bus, and she looked like she enjoyed eating it. hahas.
i was telling her "when people sees you eating like this, i think they will think that this is nice."
she replied "i just don't want to waste my 3 bucks."
LOL.

and you look at her expression here!
can tell that the apple chip is not crispy at all!

hahaas.
alright. that's enough for today.

GOOD NIGHT, everybody. =)

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11:34 PM

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alamaks!

i suffered from insomnia again last night! :(
but i managed to fall asleep at around 5+am.

i'm so tired and hungry now. =X
*YAWNNS*

i postponed the Breakfast meeting time to 10.30am cause i just crawled outta my bed at 8.30am. HAHA. =X
*runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnns.

I'M FEELING SO TIRED. =X

as i mentioned in my previous entry, i suffered from insomnia last night right?
then i went to watch VCD in the morning to try to make myself tired.
alright, it WORKS!
hahaas.
after watching like half that disc, i was feeling tired. i closed my eyes and fell asleep. =D
even though its only about 3 - 4 hours of sleep, i was happy enough. hahaas.
woke up at around 2pm, and went to iron all my clothes.
my clothes which were not ironed are piling up, and my cupboard is so empty.
ironed for 1 hour, bathed and went out.

i took bus 132 from hougang interchange.
bloody hell, i was able to reach on time (6pm) AT FIRST, but that driver drove SOOOOOOOO slow!!!
i was telling mabel i felt like driving for him sia! LOL!
and worst of all, i really wonder if he just got his license. =X
cause while i was smsing, suddenly the back left wheel of the bus, which was UNDER me, hit the road side thing and the whole bus jerked. I GOT A SHOCK! -.-"
and the funny thing is, he drove so slow at first, but after Bishan Park there, he suddenly sped up. -.-"
WEIRD DRIVER.

anyway, i managed to reach the Thomson bus stop at 6.05pm.
late by 5 minutes but nobody reach yet.
after seeing many buses passed, jookiah and bling reached.
followed by mabel. she reached earlier than them actually, but because of SOMETHING, she ended up later. =X
and thanks to chuan xiang, he reached only at SEVEN pm.
-.-"
ate until VERY full.
i was so full that i felt like i can't put anything else into my mouth if not i will throw everything out. =X

was glad to see them after quite some time. :)
hope we can meet up often and keep our friendship close. hahas.

and THANKS jookiah for sending me home just now. =D
this guy said its ON THE WAY, when its actually ONE BIG ROUND.
he lives in TPY and we were at BISHAN. so he took bus 88 with me from Bishan to Hougang and then take from Hougang all the way back to TPY, passing by Bishan. lols.
and he said his definition of ON THE WAY is as long as there is a direct bus back home.
hahaas.
nevertheless, i appreciated his company. =)

because of the lack of sleep last night,
i tried to log in to MSN several times but the server was down.
i became sleepy after staring at the screen for some time, so i went to lie on my bed and i fell asleep.
now i am quite awake. =X
but hopefully i can get to sleep later.
cause i'm meeting my girlfriend for breakfast later.
hahas. i can hear some of you say "AGAIN?!" =X
we are really mad nowadays, but nevermind, think in a positive way, we are STEADY!
HEEEEES!!!

___::tired tired tired::

Monday, September 11, 2006

this is the first time in my entire school holidays that I am exactly kinda making full use of it!HAHA!Or rather, its the first time my schedule for the holis is soooo packed!

i am so tired.

on the way back from bishan, after prata dinner with Alicia, Bling, JK and CX, wanted to sit a bus ride to airport and back.then cx who was with me, kept "pursuading" me to go home all the time, so ya, after awhile, decided to go home. Throughout the journey cx was kinda conducting a "motivation" talk.HAHA!tsktsk.thanks ar

todays the first day for the IMF thingy.Thank God is not the official first day.its sooo blooody screwed up!ARGH! was told to report at hotel intcontinental at 6:45AM.was there 15 mins early. so the person in-charged told me to wait there for further instructions.so i sat there until 7.30+ then he realised i was still there and said, "Oh!you are the bus host right?suppose to get onto the bus right?but 2 buses already left."Alrights, so i was hmm.then how? so he called back to the cluster HQ, to the person in-charge of schedule and all. in the end i was told to board the next bus to report at National Stadium, there they will iron out stuffs.

so i went off with the next bus.upon reaching NS and reporting and all the stuffs, sat in the tentage for 1 hour, only to learnt that my bus will start its journey 1 hour later.so at 11:35, went to search for the bus driver, because the bus was supposed to leave NS at 11:41.Skcarli who knows, he is not around.owells.den we thought he left without the bus host, so the guy at NS who is in-charged told me to wait for the next bus which is, agian, 1 hour later!this time we set off earlier to find the driver. Again!he is nowhere to be found!damn.i was freaking pissed. the whole morning was spent waiting and waiting and waiting.whilst waiting at NS, jolene adam and all already went for their 3rd trip and i haven started on my first!tsktsk.screwed.

1/2 hour later, the driver came back. there we learnt that for the whole morning he did not report back to the NS was supposed to be. that explains why we cant find him!owells.next trip was at 1:41.we were depayed again, because as i was told, the policemen were using the loo, so we ahve to wait for their return.tsktsk.instead they were changing shifts.we were waiting like fools, only to learn that they already changed their shifts and all. so the next batch of policemen came. they settle in the bus.5 mins later, i realised another driver in the bus!this time i asked the first driver, "now are you changing shift?" i think he saw my "black" face, so he told his friend he will go one more round before changing shifts.thanks uncle.when we really begin our journey, or rather my first trip of the day, we are 45 mins behind schedule.omgg.that's also the last trip for my shift in the morning.can you imagine?tsktsk.this is sooo screwed! *&^%$#^

damn.tsk.tsk.alrights.enough of complains.goodnight!

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11:45 PM

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OH NO!

i am suffering from insomnia! -.-"
i was up the whole night until now (time check: 9.29am), without even 1 minute of sleep.
i seriously wonder what's wrong with me. :x

i'm going to watch my VCD now, so that i will get tired and SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!

*LOUSY MOM!

Friday, September 08, 2006

AHHHH!!!
think of it, i get so fed up.

i still cannot believe she made me did such an irresponsible thing.
aren't parents suppose to teach the CORRECT things?
stupid.

she doesn't even apologise to me!
and the thing is i think she doesn't even know she made me did something irresponsible.

i felt so super duper guilty to my agent.
haiis.

QI SI WO LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like screaming to her that because of her 1 sentence, she affected MANY OF US.
and made me did something WRONG.
and pull my agent into the MESS.
BUT, forget it.
she will still think she is in NO fault.
and she will still give ALL SORTS OF EXCUSES.

all these shouldn't be found on a MOTHER, IF she is aware of that.

and because i was thinking about it just now,
i accidentally slammed the bathroom door into my head just now.
-_________________________-'''

i hate myself.

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*all i want is your care and concern.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

i shut myself from this world for the whole day.
my head hurts as though it's going to burst anytime.
my handphone was on, but it was dumped one side in silent and no vibration mode.

she came home and act as if nothing happened.
she doesn't even bother to ask if i went for the interview.

when it comes to my brother, she became so nervous.
asked me to translate every single english word in the sms to chinese.
she gave him money to go Malaysia to see formula 1.
i don't know to call this unfair or bias.
i just wanted to buy shorts and contact lens and she scolded like hell.

i wanted to find a job to earn money to pay for my own expenses.
but she destroyed that glimpse of hope this morning.
and YET, she still can scold me everytime when i tell her i wanna buy something.

when i worked last time,
i never ask her for money.
even if i buy dinner for my brothers, i only used my own pay.
my brother worked too, but he took her money.
why doesn't she say him?
RIDICULOUS.

i was sneezing all the time.
she said who ask you to on the fan.
but the truth is, my cold wasn't because of the fan.
i cried myself back to sleep after she left for work.
and when i woke up, i started sneezing non-stop already.
i flooded my dustbin with lots and lots of tissues.

she NEVER bother to ask properly before she says me. NEVER.
i hate being accused. and i really mean HATE.
but everything i kept quiet cause i don't wish to argue back.
and i know she will get all kinds of reasons to "cover up" her mistakes.

so what's the point of explaining?

the problem now isn't money or biasness or what.
i am just real disappointed.
being a mother doesn't mean she is right ALL THE TIME, isn't it?
she doesn't understand this.

at times i really feel that she only look at the bad side of me but never the good side.
i really wish to have a mother who can understand and talk to me.
but no matter how hard i pray, how many river of tears i shed,
she is still the same old her.

ALL I WANT is a mother whom i can talk about everything with.
one who appreciates her daughter.
one who bother to understand what her daughter wants.
and one who get things right before nagging or scolding.

but no matter what, in my heart i still love her. more than anything.

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8:10 PM

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I TOTALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT DOES SHE WANTS!

for the past few days, she nagged at me EVERY SINGLE DAY to find a job.
and yes, my agent got me one.
i was so happy.
but NOW. she asked me not to go just because of CONTACT LENS.

i shan't say the details.
i stormed outta her room saying "YOU ARE THE ONE WHO ASKED ME TO FIND A JOB. AND NOW, YOU DON'T LET ME GO."

she gave me all sorts of reasons saying
"Who ask you not to take care of your eyes last time!"
"Everything last minute!"
.................
...........
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i just feel like shouting back, "DO U THINK I WANT IT TO BE LAST MINUTE!!!?!!"
i was informed at 11.25PM to be exact. she already slept.
so WHAT CAN I DO!

on monday, she asked me questions. i was watching TV. so i replied in short sentences, or by nodding or shaking my head.
she said i don't even want to talk to her.
so now i want to say, WHO WILL LIKE TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO ALWAYS SPOIL YOUR MOOD?

NOBODY!
NOBODY!
NOBODY!

i really feel that she is so UNREASONABLE, no matter how childish you think i am now.
nobody can understand how i feel. NOT EVEN if you try to put yourself in MY shoes.
because you are NOT me afterall.

NOTHING i do can satisfy her.

i envy my friends who can talk to their moms about everything.
i envy those kids who can shop with their moms.
i wish to say i love shopping with my mom too.
but so?
that kind of happiness in me only lasted for a day. or maybe less than that. sometimes she can just go mad once she reaches home.

i miss those days i came home running to my mom telling her what i did for the day in school.

i can never forget that day, when i was in primary school i think.
i came home from school and was having my lunch in the kitchen.
she took a HELLO KITTY clock and brought it to me with smiles and asked if i like it.
i was overjoyed. i love that clock.
i was so touched.
but things are different now.
especially after she started going to work, i could hardly see her.
and worst of all, i could hardly talk to her like last time.

i was upset.
i want the old US.
but... its impossible.

at that very moment, i just wish to leave.

i wish to be outta here.
i was so down, i just feel like walking and walking aimlessly.
i just feel like sitting in front of the sea and stare into space.
i just feel like doing nothing.

i am very vexed.
i don't know if i should still go for the interview.
i don't want to be irresponsible and pull my agent down into this mess.
but.

with my teary eyes.
with my red nose.
with my empty head.

i have no mood for interview ANYMORE.

if you are clever enough, you should know that the person i been talking about is no other people but MY MOM.
each time she scolds me, i will be thinking how is her ideal daughter like.
but i totally have no idea, cause i can never know what does she wants.

decision made: i am not going.
be it irresponsible or childish. i hate myself like this too.
but i don't think i can go in this state for that particular position.

even my own room which i used to think its warm doesn't keep me warm today.
I NEED A HUG. but... forget it.

i am extremely down today.
I JUST WISH TO BE ALONE.

*anything

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

BORING. BORING. BORING.

i feel like i'm wasting my days away. :x
i want to work to earn money, but i don't have the working mood.
besides, there is no job for me to work too. hahaas.
am waiting for job agent to call, but no news. haiis.

met MABEL for breakfast again. hahaas.
both of us are mad nowadays. :x
always meeting for BREAKFAST.

after that, went The Cathay to catch The Devil wears Prada xD
the show wasn't too bad.
i think most of the girls will like it.
the clothes they wore were so beautiful.
the heels they wore were so high. i think i will have difficulties walking with that. but they can RUNNNN with it. :x

walked around after movie.
and went home cause i was feeling very tired.

and I AM SO BORED NOW!

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10:58 PM

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*WTH!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

STUPID! i can't blog with my laptop again.
URGHHHS!!!

feeling soooooooooooo tired!

woke up at 8.30am this morning.
forced open my eyes and dragged myself off the bed. lols!
its been so long since i last woke up at 8+am and left house at 9+am on a Sunday.

met MABEL at Serangoon to have roti prata, which i craved for few days already. :x
but the one i crave for is the Thomson's Prata.
hmm. nevermind about that. at least i get to eat PRATA and drink Milo Gozilla. x)
heees!

cause we met SO EARLY, we had nothing to do after breakfast.
so we headed down to the COMEX.
on the way, both of us were chatting about our mothers. hahaas!
and we realised our mothers can become GOOD FRIENDS sia.
SAME PATTERN 1. :x

reached Expo around 12pm and its super CROWDED already.
the moment i stepped into the first hall, somebody came to tap on me. i turned and saw my classmate, Valerie! hahaas. she was working there, but i forgot for which company.
then we walked around aimlessly. cause we weren't there to buy anything. just to take a look around. :x
saw the mp3 which i like at Creative booth. ZEN V PLUS.
its so MUCHHHHHH smaller than i thought. no wonder Ian told me its too small for him. hahaas. its smaller than my palm okays. goodness!

it looks big inside pictures, but it is SO small!
I LOVE IT, but i got my MuVo TX FM already. :(

continued walking around. and we walked past this booth which i had no idea what it was selling. then there was this guy who wanted to give mabel the brochure, but she didn't take.
after we walked past, i told her he is such a CUTE guy, and she regretted not taking it from him. HAHAHAA!

then we took MRT down to Marina Square.
there was this Science thingy there and mabel's school had this lobster film playing there.
i was watching the film and just when i turned behind, i saw this guy who is SOOOOOO FAMILIAR! so i looked at the booth, and it said TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC. omg! that guy whom i stared for quite some time was actually my OPSY lab tutor! :x the thing was he was also staring at me. :x so i faster turned back and walked off. hahaas.

after awhile, mabel's friends came.
am glad to know them.
they are friendly. heheees! x)

then, we saw Cai Chun Jia and her boyfriend? husband? friend? :x at ZARA.
nobody actually recognise her.
she looks quite pretty though. :)
played around with some of the winter jackets at ZARA and headed home at around 5+.

LONG DAY outside. :p
*YAWNN*

I WANT TO GO EXERCISING!

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9:08 PM

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*bored

Saturday, September 02, 2006

BOREDDD!!!

holidays are boring.
BUT i still prefer holidays than schooling. hahaas. :x

nothing interesting happen nowadays, so there is nothing for me to blog.
:x

i am looking forward to 14th SEPTEMBER 2006! x)

somebody spice up my life, please.

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10:51 PM

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today had a shoot at Wildwild wet.got myself suntanned.=( didnt apply sunblock lotion.so ya~)i kinda have a "plaster-shaped" suntanned part across my nose and cheeks.HAHA!

hmm.kids nowadays.tsktsk.wana know?ask ME!=X

okies.hmm.opened the letterbox and found the tix for the seventeen party at zouk on tuesday.hmm.will tell mom about it.HAHA!

was kinda bored just now,so checked out friendster, like once in a blue moon.HAHA!found my other immediate cousins profile!=) owells~

cheeers mans.i so bored.and i shall not think of other stuffs.