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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

you guys may think why am i always saying i am sad when its only a small matter.

when it concerns my parents, the matter is never simple and small.

just now when my dad came home, he walked into my room and said in a serious tone "JINGYING, COME OUT"
i knew it was nothing good.
how scary it was to hear that tone of his.

he took my handphone bill and questioned me what's that Wireless Surf charge about.
from what i saw, Singtel only stated Wireless Charge (50 mins) - $6+

few days ago when he asked me about it, i already said i don't know whats that about.
and last night i remembered once i surf the wireless with Wanting @ Starbucks before, but i can't confirm if it was that.
however, things went worse.
my dad scolded me saying i don't admit what i used.
oh well, i wasn't even sure what's that about. am i supposed to admit something when i don't even know if i did it?

nevermind.
my dad soften down when he saw me crying badly.
but my mom came out to add oil.
and that was when i got irritated.
i answered her back about her misunderstood me for using the laptop only to chat with people whom i don't know.
i repeat: she SCOLDED me for chatting with UNKNOWN people.
can't she just check with me before jumping into THAT stupid conclusion?
and i was angry with my cousin for being such a busybody.
aren't he supposed to be busy with his Os? i been encouraging him to study hard and don't always surf the net, especially his prelims result is SO bad.
and WTH, he went to tell his mom that i always on MSN.
on MSN, doesn't mean i am in front of laptop. OKAYYY!!??

i mentioned i chose to keep silent when my mom misunderstood me.
JUST LIKE WHAT I EXPECTED, when i tried to explain she misunderstood me, she scolded EVEN MORE.
and now she used all kinds of reasons to cover that "misunderstood" part.

haiiis.
what can i do.

i just want PEACE, TRUST and UNDERSTANDING.
my head is killing me now.

yours truly,

alicia`JYING

Written at
11:56 PM

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