I attended my very own funeral, in an open muddy field.
I saw myself in the coffin. My coffin had no cover
The photo was some magazine page with a girl’s picture splash across, BIG. Not mine.
There was another coffin beside me, but I no recognize.

I spoke, people heard.
I cried, they can’t for I realized, I was transparent.

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Pretty much scary huh. This was my nightmare of last night. I dreamt I died. :s I think this has something to do with what Julia told me yesterday because I was telling her about me being alone in the cinema in Lido. This was what happened: on Tuesday I was buying The Game Plan ticket from the counter and I enquired when the last screening for Balls of Fury and she showed me the sitting plan for that show. Then I realized it was the next day. So I told her I would most probably come back for it tomorrow. What I remember seeing on that particular sitting plan was 5 occupied seats in a row in row E or something and a few individual seats in front.

So I went back on Wednesday for Balls of Fury. Again the same ticket-office lady attended to me. And Again I saw the same sitting plan. Freaky huh. (But this wasn’t what I thought then. I just thought people really bought the tickets for the show. ) I didn’t know where to sit so the lady recommended either in front of the 5 or behind and I chose the latter.

So it was 12:10 and I entered theater. It was pretty much black with the lights on the ground. AND THEN NOW’S THE TIME I WAS…well…scared stiffed! Because I realized I was the only one! To comfort myself I said maybe the people will come late. After the 5 minutes of advertisements, the show began. And STILL I AM THE ONLY ONE! Then less then 2 minutes after the show begin, visuals were still moving, but there was no sound! What’s distracting was the opening and closing of the curtain at the toilet exit and scufflings. So I decided to pack up and walk out of the theater for help. (as in the sound.) On my way out, I saw this lady walking in. HAHA. So I told her there was no sound and I was going to ask for help outside and she said okay and continued walking in.

When I was outside, I was relieved! I saw LIGHTS AND HUMANS! Hahas. After voicing my concern about the sound thing to the old man outside (you know, the old man who are in white uniform, standing outside the doors to collect the tickets), I went back in, only to find the lady sitting in the row in front of me. So I went back to my seat and she said, “so both of us are the only ones here”. I told her I guess so and laughed then we continued watching the show. Thank God, the show was hilarious! And not a horror one! Or we might just frighten ourselves. As soon as the show ended, not even when the credit started rolling, the lady walked out and so I followed suit.

Throughout the whole 1 and a ½ hours, although I am concentrated on the show, but I still feel uneasy. I keep feeling there’s presence behind me etc. tsktsk! Okies okies, it’s all over, and I don’t want to keep thinking about it. When I went over the Julia’s place after the show and told her about the occupied seats, she told me about the ya. :x

Anyways, Grandma is warded in SGH again because she had a fall. Though nothing serious but she was to stay for observation. Thank God, it wasn’t last week; otherwise my aunt will not be able to ‘cater’ the food for me because she would be busy taking care of her. :x And I think Grandma is getting a bit too senile. She kind of doesn’t know what she is talking about. I think she has aged a lot during the past 4 years. Now she even has difficulties walking and things like that. But I thank her for sending all her children, especially my mom, to English schools. Otherwise, my family situation would be very bad after dad's passing. :)