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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

wooo~
HOLIDAYS! :D
went Vivocity to meet jookiah & huixian after paper.
while waiting for hx to knock off from work, and boyfriend to come,
jk and i were chatting away at the sky garden.

the conversation somehow made me speechless and felt guilty towards boyfriend.
especially when i specially bought 1/2 dozen of donuts for him, yet he don't believe its really bought by me. somehow, it hurted to hear the sentence "you can't be that good to buy those for me".
not to say hurt, but that sentence really striked me with the thought "am i really such a lousy girlfriend that he doesn't even believe that i bought him something?"

everybody KEPT telling me that i'm always thinking too much.
am i?
i mean, i don't want to, but i don't feel that i have a choice.
it just occurs NATURALLY.

nevertheless, i'm already trying my VERY best not to think TOO MUCH.
but it feels really tired to hear that over and over again.

maybe i'm just too silly to want things to be perfect, when i know that nothing can be perfect in this world.

i know you wanna say, "are you stressing yourself too much again?"

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*steamboat

Thursday, February 22, 2007

steamboat was great.
lots of laughters :)
everybody enjoyed it.

special thanks to HUIXIAN for preparing the steamboat and making the chocolate fondue.
XD

upload of photos about valentine's day and this steamboat after my exams =D
time to study for now! :(

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chu san/valentine's

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

初三, 20th Feb.

my house was very crowded with 11people yesterday.HAHA! so re nao! as if mother suddenly have so many daughters and sons!HAHAHAHA.lets see who came : (in order of attendence) Alexia, Jacelyn, Sarah, Jasmine, Edwin&Jookiah, Fidelia,Pohleng, Jestyn&Cousins (Kenny&Yifeng). Lao da Elf and Lao san Shann couldn't make it soooo sad laaaa.hiax.cant do the yu sheng thing with us.haha.but nevermind. heard your coming from others in the day, also heard your absence from others in the night even mother was expecting you. i haven spoken of you in front of her for a long time. nevermind, "by default, it's table for two " quoted from alex. anyway here are the pictures:

with the polyians.

with the secondarians.

the night people!played 2 games to finish off the bities on the table!hahaha

by the way, Brother gave Pohleng a new nick! SYMBOLS!=x LOL.

why?

cos its Sim Poh Leng.HAHAHAHAHAAH!=P
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Valentine's day:

was supposed to meet fee for shopping but had relief, so went out with LAO DA!haha! shopped around TM/Century Square/Marina Square.

a little dyed hair

mismatched clothes from...
... I.P Zone!

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didn't mean to be unhappy.

didn't mean to show attitude.

at first i really don't mind, but felt kind of left out after that, especially when you were busy with your cousins and neglected my existance.

it was then i realised i actually don't like it.

i know you meant well, but i just feel weird.

i chose to keep quiet because i don't want you to leave because of me.

i was afraid when you ignored and walked in front of me.

it tells me you were angry with me.

i wanted to forget and smile like you asked me to, but i just couldn't.

i wanted to walk up and hold your hand, but i don't have the courage.

that's when i broke down into tears when you gave in and gave me a hug.

i am really confused with myself.
i don't know if the problem lies on my character or my attitude.
i really don't know what i should do.

do you know how stressful am i?
why does things turn out this way...

yours truly,
alicia`JYING

*for my love

Sunday, February 18, 2007

specially for my ♥:

(click for larger view)

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新年快乐，

万事如意，

心想事成，

恭喜发财，

猪年行大运！

大家发！！！

inviting everybody to come over at my place on 初三, tuesday (tentatively). =)

call.sms.msn for details.LOL.

updates.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

i am still very lazy to upload the pics taken in sentosa with family during december holis.=x

one week since the last update.

last wed stayed at alex's house to finish up the EoF patchwork thing till late.in the end the very last step her mom helped us complete; that's drawing the final heart and stuffing the cotton etc. on thursday the noir noir cushion aka patchwork was placed in the exhibition hall.friday was the critic and analysis.

proudly brought to you by: (from left) lao er Sarah, lao si Mabel, lao san Shannon, lao da Elfrida and lastly lao/xiao wu Alexia.

i was saying this looks like both of them are lying on a bed.HAHA.by the way, its also a close up on the "heart" of the heart.

our little write-up for the project.

presenting to you our mascot's cousin, Stampede

~~they were saying this looks like the SPCA little girl figure holding the donation box.~~

lastly, our little booth! =)

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monday: doctor's advice, stay away from the sun.

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tuesday: had HoliSTA. all went reluctantly. late. Suzanne Jung from CNA Primetime was one of the guest speakers. after the break we left.=x, initial plan was to do CNY shopping.but ended up at airport.HAHa.

Suzanne Jung giving her speech. this is the closest i can get from my seat.-x

E5's ladies.LOL.(from left clockwise) Jasmine, Mabel, Alexia, Sarah, Elfrida and Shannon

i like. =)

we were trying to run away without being noticed while...

2 & 5 are playing with the cammy behind us!LOL

and so after we got away successfully, we laughed heartily. much fun.HAHA

the most successful "jump' picture i can use.=X

the 'human pyramid' LOL

our tagggggggs

see how strong lao da is!LOL

don't mess around wif'em.

down the ramp.eh.Sarah is being blocked by lao da!LOL

just before Sarah left. See that! NO TROLLEYS ON ESCALATOR

Sarah and Shannon

Sarah and Elf

Mab and Elf

Shann and Mab

Jasmine and Mabel

Mabel and Alexia

Yes, Mind your Gap.LOL

hao yi ge...

mei li de...

(mo li hua) ta yang hua!;P

Thats all folks.will update other stuffs probably tml or after CNY.

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*trust

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

i never know lies can hurt so much.

especially when they comes from the people you trust most.

all of a sudden, i don't know who can i trust.

i don't know who can i rely on.

i just feel that its better to be alone.

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

*whats wrong with me.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

maybe i should understand myself more before i care about other stuffs.

sometimes i really don't know what i want.

felt kind of disappointed with myself.

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*bored @ csad

Thursday, February 08, 2007

BORED! BORED! BORED!
having CSAD lab now, supposed to be doing the remedial questions.
but nobody bothers. lols.
everybody in the class is doing their own stuffs, while teacher is evaluating 1 project goup at a time.
since i can't blog much at home, i shall make use of the chance to blog now. LOL.

left 1 more week of school only! =D
valentine's day next wednesday.
chinese new year next sunday.
i can't wait for holidays!

but before that, its examinations time.
i DON'T HAVE enough time to enjoy my CNY! :(

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Specially for my ♥ :

past few days were quite tough for us.
arguments came between us several times.

however, you still gave in to me in the end.
you went with what i want.
you woke up specially early and bought me breakfast the very next morning,
and even waited patiently outside though i didn't bother about you.

that very night, thoughts came upon me, wondering if we are really suitable to be together.
all of a sudden, i felt that i didn't know you well enough.
i was afraid to lose you.
but,
you consoled me not to think too much.
you assured me with your words of love.
you made me feel that my thoughts were all unnecessary.

its unavoidable to have arguments/quarrels between couples.
i'm sure we will be able to overcome each and every obstacles that comes between us.
but i hope it won't happen to us too many times. haha. :x
each argument/quarrel makes us understand each other more as we get to know what is it that we don't like about each other. :)

thanks for all that you did for me. your tolerance, your concern, your understanding, and more.
sorry to make you worried and sleepless that night.
just wanna tell you, no matter what happens, i will not give up easily.
i want you by my side.
i want you in my life.
i want you not as a normal friend, but my one and only love.

i love you, boyfriend.
:)

f*** it la

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

~~F*** IT(LA!)~~

~~MOM'S SCOLDING~~

~~NAGGING~~

~~COMPLAINING~~

~~EVERY SINGLE NIGHT~~

~~OVER EVERY LITTLE TRIVAL MATTER~~

~~AS IF SHE IS HAVING PMS EVERY BLOODY NIGHT!~~

~~F*** YOU.~~

sorry, i dont mean to be vulgar.but i am just very pissed off with my life. now you know why i always love to come home late?how i wished, i could be knocked down when i cross the road tomorrow morning, or better yet - go in my sleep. -peaceful-

ALRIGHTS,maybe its for NOW only.

-whatever-

had a haircut yesterday: fresh shorter and lighter. the usual - fringe.

last week of school.last story-writting lesson.last class with alina.last day with elective classmate - Angel-. last day of my life?

edited 2 picture for Unglams;

its very pixelated for it's not meant to be small.

i will not peace out.

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*random

Monday, February 05, 2007

am i expecting too much?

i just don't wish history to repeat again.

and most importantly, i can't afford to lose another.

maybe i'm just selfish to want all my loved ones to myself.

sometimes i scare to be alone, but there are also times when i wish to be alone.

haiis. i don't even know what i want.

[ all the above are not referring to boyfriend.

he has always been the sweetest to me :) ]

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thanks for the necklace, dear :)

and

sorry for being stubborn.

you've always been the one giving in to me.

i'm thankful to have you.

ily

*l0ves.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

my life is filled with smiles with you in it

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headache is gone today :)

panadols can't even cure my headache that i need to take an even stronger medicine -.-'''

am so bored now.

chose to stay at home today, cause headache just recovered.

watching alnost all the dramas that i downloaded. finished 4 episodes already.

craving for tidbits! :x

- Starbucks's Oreo Cheesecake.

- Ferrero's Kinder Bueno & Rocher.

- Jack & Jill's Chilli Flavour Potato Chips.

- MacDonalds's French Fries.

lol. all fattening food. :x

*headache.

Friday, February 02, 2007

headache since last night.

cannot take it anymore.

just like what fee said, i can't even sleep, walk, sit, etc in peace.

can somebody tell me how to get rid of the pain...?

what exactly is wrong with my head!

:'(

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back

Thursday, February 01, 2007

brother has been sick for the past 4 days, rather he IS still sick.tsktsk.stomach flu.i see him throw up and diarrhea and all, feel damn sad for him.

in the midst of EOF project.sewing and stitchings, you want right?!deadline by next friday, rather end of this week? so have to put a stop to my animes and shows le.haha.

i dislike people who practices favouritism, and judges book by appearance.Unglams will know whom.HAHA!Best of it all, they are facs! so at the end of the day, my grades suffer!zzz.

i want to dream BIG!I WANT to enter NTU (ya,go on and laugh).have to consider local Unis first, cos have sis and bro after me.sadd.

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